Blaugust 1: Confessions
I’m only writing this right now to avoid the utter failure of missing the first day of a self-imposed blogging challenge.
The last writing challenge I did was the 365k365day challenge (which I detailed to some degree on my writing blog). I think it was in 2014. I was very excited about it to begin with, but lost steam all too quickly and beyond April of that year, barely wrote 1,000 words. My failure in that challenge coincided with my overall writing hiatus. Perhaps it even caused it. I don’t know–I don’t think I’ll ever know.
I was going to do editing work when I got home from the retail work, but after my short dinner break and a bit of poking things on the internet, I took a little time to watch an episode or two on Netflix. Now it’s 10:30 and I still intend to do the work… but I’m not sure how much I can actually finish tonight. This type of thing has happened to me too frequently and makes me feel extremely disappointed in myself. I believe it proves that I’m not really an adult.
Today I ate super-healthy lunch and dinner (spinach salad with chicken), but nothing for breakfast and greasy, sea salt kettle chips for a mid-afternoon snack. Not to mention I’ve been craving a peanut butter and hot fudge sundae like crazy ALL day. This “being healthy” stuff is way too difficult for me.
I no longer know how to follow through on my personal goals that affect no one but me. The absolutely necessary responsibilities just tire me out so much that it feels pointless to do things that no one else is going to validate. While that sounds very immature and selfish, I think a lot of people feel the same way.
Final confession: I hope I can make a better post tomorrow.
Posted on August 1, 2016, in Blog, Food and Drink, life, writing and tagged adulthood, blaugust, blogging, challenge, confession, confessions, food, goals, healthy, life, work, writing. Bookmark the permalink. 1 Comment.