Time moves on and I, again, am stuck in place. Small things change, but never things that matter.
They say–“they” meaning everyone–that you have to make changes happen, instead of just waiting around. And maybe if I could figure out what I actually wanted, it would make sense to try to get it. I have no clue.
One of the things I miss most about college was the constant cycle of change. New classes, new temporary jobs and internships, everything happening in chunks of 3-4 months and then, before you know it, there’s a new thing starting. It was set up that way. The rest of your life could very well be the same exact day, year after year, until you die. If that happens to me, I can say right now that I will not be content. No, I’ll be sitting there, wondering why I couldn’t figure out how to make myself happy.
I need a change. I mean a REAL change, a big change. Move to a new country, start a brand new career, go back to school for something I’ve never studies before change.
I don’t know what I’m going to do, but I’m tired of the way things are now.
I said I’d do it, so I’m doing it… promising to do a certain type of post each week can put you in an awkward position if you don’t have a good topic that week. Of course, no one would really even notice, I’m sure, if I didn’t do it. But I’m trying to be better about following through with things, having spent the last year essentially procrastinating on every possible thing. So here are five things, I guess. My five “resolutions” for the year. They aren’t things that can be achievements that are completed by the end of the year, but things that are meant to propel my life in a better direction.
- Save, pay off debt, make more money.
- Write more often.
- Work out at least ten minutes every single day. Actually, make it fifteen.
- Get my physical space organized and keep it that way.
- Actively pursue work that will make me happy.
I know, these all probably seem like obvious and common New Year’s Resolutions and you’d expect me to forget about them by the end of the month. If I’m lucky I might last until March.
Well, this is just not the case. It has become painfully clear (like, it was really painful…) that I need to make quite a few changes in my life. That’s not going to change in a few months so my goals will remain the same.