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Blaugust 16: The Random Thoughts


Half the month of August just cannot be over. I mean, it’s not fair! I have SO much to get done! (I know, that’s my fault. If I were better at being an adult and actually getting things done, I would not end up with such immense to-do lists. I continually have too much faith in my ability to actually do the thing the second time it comes up–as opposed to the tenth time. Once in a while I make a conscious decision to work on this habit, but then I put it off until the next day… what I’m saying is, I am the champion of procrastination.)

Today turned out to be terribly inconvenient. I started work early, but unfortunately had more left to do than I thought. So, after a few hours when there was an issue with the power and internet, I had to trek out somewhere to finish up the work and send it to the appropriate recipient. I’ve been sitting in a coffee shop for over two hours now. That’s a long time for me these days… in the end it worked out ok, but it would have been so much easier if everything just worked in the place where I started. The interruption just makes things more difficult.

I wish I had news to share. The only thing I can think of is that yesterday, when I posted all about what I ate that day, I had many more likes on the post than the previous few days, where I had NO post likes on my random musings. Sometimes, when I want to write a post but have no good topic ideas, I write about some random thought I have. And no one, it seems, gives a shit about those…

Of course, to me a blog is for just that. It’s for posting whatever random crap you want. If you start posting only on certain topics or spending hours crafting a post, it’s not a blog anymore. It’s an internet publication. It’s a fancy, official thing that then needs to be monitored and edited frequently.

Call me crazy, but I have always liked blogging the random thoughts in my head. And I’m probably going to keep doing it. But if I never get any likes on those posts, I don’t want to post them. Blogging has become a strange thing–even if you aren’t doing it professionally, you find yourself feeling somewhat competitive about them. “I write better than what they post on THAT blog, why do they get to make money from it?” And other thoughts like that.

This has gotten very rambly and I’m not sure where it’s going, but I need to pack up and get back home now.

Blaugust 3: WordPress is being mean


Confession: I follow my own blog on WordPress. I do it to test that my posts show up in the feed. If they don’t I don’t do anything but pout about how WordPress does so many things that don’t make sense.

For instance, people can subscribe by email, but if the subscriber reads your post in an email is doesn’t “count” as a view. Nor does it count if the post is read on Facebook or Tumblr, which are two ways that I usually share my posts. Therefore I’m caught in a Catch-22: if I don’t share on alternative social media, I won’t get as many views. But those views don’t count toward my page views.

I signed up to the wordpress ad program a while ago, and the response is essentially, when your blog gets enough views to qualify, we’ll contact you. No further information, e.g.: do I have to reapply at some point? Can you do something to track views that occur on other sites where the post was shared? (because that would only be fair, but it seems like those views are never counted).

Why am I writing about this now? Because yesterday’s post, Dali Meets Disney, didn’t come up in my feed. So I have no idea if anyone saw it at all…

In addition, my posts don’t usually generate much interaction. I get a rare comment and up to about ten likes for a single post. In the world of Blogging, with a capital B, that doesn’t mean much.

The whole wordpress feed issue led me to take a quick look at my stats and see that the first post of Blaugust ALSO didn’t have any views. And this sent me into a mini-spiral. “No one likes me. This whole thing is pointless. Why even bother?”

Thankfully (possibly due to the mood-stabilizing vitamin regimen I’ve started?), I was able to stop myself from going into a full-on breakdown and remind myself that the point of Blaugust isn’t the views (although at least a few would be REALLY F*@#&ING NICE), it’s to remind myself what it feels like to write on a regular basis. With any luck, I’ll pick it up fairly quickly and I’ll be able to stop blogging about blogging.

The Update Continues


Well then, two weeks later, I still have not done any of that blog-fixin’ I was talking about! The perfectionist in me is shying away from the task. She doesn’t want to put in all this work and then have the world respond with “So what?” So I guess I’ve been biding my time until I have a good chunk of time to deal with rearranging the blog. I can tell it’s going to take quite a lot of work to get things the way I want, and I’m so behind on other life things that I can’t give it the attention it deserves right now.

My chicken tikka masala post continues to get views constantly. I honestly don’t know how this has happened. I liked the post just fine, but it’s hardly a masterpiece. Is adding a can of coconut milk to a jar of tikka masala sauce really so interesting to people that it’s almost the only post that is ever viewed? It’s kind of disheartening to me otherwise… While I’m glad people have enjoyed this post, it sort of makes me think that any seeming success I’ll ever have in my life will be a fluke.

I have a jar of the same sauce and a plan to try the “recipe” with shrimp. Will that one get anywhere near the same amount of views? My guess is no.

My hope is that I’ll be able to have the new format of the blog figured out by the end of October. I want to say September, but I worry that it will take me much longer than that to get my other stuff in order. Or something resembling it. Until then I am sure I’ll just fret about the many imperfections in this and other aspects of my life.

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